THE SILENCES OF ANNIE DILLARD A Thesis by Robynn Sims Master of Arts, Wichita State University, 2014 Christian Ministries, Tabor College, 2004 Submitted to the Department of English and the faculty of the Graduate School of Wichita State University in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the degree of Master of Arts May 2014 1 © Copyright 2014 by Robynn Sims All Rights Reserved 2 THE SILENCES OF ANNIE DILLARD The following faculty members have examined the final copy of this thesis for form and content, and recommend that it be accepted in partial fulfillment of the requirement for the degree of Master of Arts, with a major in English. Kimberly Engber, Committee Chair Mary Waters, Committee Member Robin Henry, Committee Member i3ii DEDICATION To my parents, who taught me to look to the clouds, to the stars 4iv “You were made and set here to give voice to this, your own astonishment.” — Annie Dillard, The Writing Life “Silence makes us pilgrims.” — Henri Nouwen, The Way of the Heart v5 ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS I would like to thank my advisor, Dr. Kimberly Engber, for her guidance and encouragement, as well as my other committee members, Dr. Mary Waters and Dr. Robin Henry, for their insight and thorough analysis. I am grateful for Dr. Engber's willingness to follow this path with me over the last year. Professor Albert Goldbarth offered his time and thoughts, for which I am indebted. Without the gentle leading of Warren Farha and the staff at Eighth Day Books this thesis would have remained unwritten. For my colleagues Parker McConachie and Amanda Crabtree, their engaging conversations helped me form my ideas. More than I can say, I am deeply grateful to Katie Parks for her friendship and hospitality. My family and friends have provided the support I needed to continue on this pilgrimage, though I find myself on the via negativa much of the time, and gladly. 6vi ABSTRACT This research began as an investigation into Annie Dillard's An American Childhood with the intention of discovering if her memoir could be considered nature writing. Though I had intended to limit myself to her memoir, my research in nature writing and in ecocriticism continued to expand the breadth of Dillard's work that I included. The underlying theme that became a focal point for my research was that of the spiritual language in Dillard's writing, which I examined through Max Picard's definition of silence. After merging varied ways of seeing nature writing and spiritual writing in Dillard's work, it became apparent, even before reading the “Afterword” in Pilgrim at Tinker Creek, that Dillard's writing was pointing toward silence and darkness. The via negativa, a Christian aesthetic path toward unknowing, is what I traced through three of her books: Pilgrim at Tinker Creek, Holy the Firm, and An American Childhood. Not only does Dillard join a tradition of nature writing along with Henry David Thoreau and the Romantics, but her contributions remain shrouded because her words leave space for possibility: enchantment, bewilderment, or both, paradoxically. 7vii TABLE OF CONTENTS Chapter Page I. INTRODUCTION: THE MAP 9 II. THE LIMITS AND POSSIBILITIES OF SILENCE 16 III. THE TULIP BUD: THE SILENCE OF PURIFICATION 23 IV. THE SPIDER'S WEB: THE SILENCE OF ILLLUMNIATION 37 V. THE SACRED SKATER: THE SILENCE OF TRANSFIGURATION 46 VI. CONCLUSION: THE SILENCE OF ASTONISHMENT 55 AFTERWORD 57 AFTER THE AFTERWORD 58 BIBLOGRAPHY 59 v8iii CHAPTER 1 INTRODUCTION: THE MAP The work of Annie Dillard is often divided into two categories, nature writing and spiritual writing. These are not mutually exclusive; one informs the other. In exploring the vein of eco-criticism, I discovered that Dillard carves her own path: on her website, next to an article on eco-theology, Dillard quips, “forget eco-anything.” (So I did, at least for a while.) Her writing comes from an ancient and disciplined way of living, comes from a way of seeing. Dillard maneuvers nature through spirituality, but her writing cannot be reduced to either/or. With precision and grace, Dillard offers her readers something rare: religious writing without doctrine, nature writing without dogma. What Dillard sets out to do is to see what she can see; then to write what she can write. The result reveals a deep reliance on the power of a word and the absence of the word. This power comes sometimes from choosing a precise word and sometimes from not naming; Dillard's reliance on silence leaves space for an awakening to a divine darkness.1 The divine darkness is not where to begin, usually, though it seems to be where Dillard returns (and what I return to). After attempting to craft an argument for Dillard as an eco-autobiographical writer in combination with her romps through nature, I came to an impasse: Dillard exemplifies the writer who shifts deftly between memory and narrative in An American Childhood, but the elements of nature writing were too strong to ignore, yet too varied to fit into the eco-autobiographical perspective only. The way that Dillard constructed her “mental map” and the way that she became awake to her consciousness signaled deeper ecological workings as well (An American Childhood 42). Dillard hints at a religious narrative woven back through Henry David Thoreau, the Romantics, all the way back through early Christian mystics to the beginnings of the biblical narrative: “darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters” (New International Version Bible, Gen. 1.2). The darkness reveals itself more fully in Pilgrim at Tinker Creek and becomes the hinge—the divine darkness—in Holy the Firm. Dillard's work is crucial to both the spiritual writing and the nature writing camps because her work presses the rim of the boundary between these two genres; silence is the way she navigates the middle ground. In attempting to find a model for a critical lens for Dillard's work, I absorbed too completely my major source. While Peter F. Perreten's “Autobiography: Portrait of Place/Self-Portrait” (2003) offers much of the frame 1 Annie Dillard refers to the “divine dark” in the “Afterword” (1999) of Pilgrim at Tinker Creek. 9 for my original ideas, and the more closely I read Dillard, the more my argument mimicked Perreten's, failing to encompass what my close readings were revealing. Perreten examines how Lisa Dale Norton, Annie Dillard and N. Scott Momaday demonstrate a “symbiotic relationship between the natural setting and the self” (2). With insight toward Dillard's An American Childhood, Perreten became a beginning toward a more ecocritical approach (though I had initially resisted it). Perreten's work seems to hint at ecocritcism without actually using the term. The critical waters were stirred by nature writing in the 1970s, but the term ecocritcism was not fully given a definition until the 1990s. Lawrence Buell defines ecocriticism “as study of the relation between literature and environment conducted in a spirit of commitment to environmental praxis” (430). Ecocriticism has its roots in literary ecology, according to Buell in his expansive The Environmental Imagination: Thoreau, Nature Writing, and the Formation of American Culture (1995) (430). Buell is primarily using Thoreau as a framework, and he relegates one possible critical foundation for his reading to a footnote. Buell traces the beginning of the ecocritical movement to Joseph Meeker's Comedy of Survival: Literary Ecology and a Play Ethic (originally published in 1974), which was “neglected” by critics (430). Meeker explores the intersection of “human behavior and the natural environment” in literature (4). Following Meeker, Stanley Cavell gave a series of lectures on Henry David Thoreau in 1971-72 that became The Senses of Walden, a densely constructed exegesis of Thoreau's major work, Walden (vii). Cavell often delves into philosophy and theology to give framework for his study (xiii). Buell's work is also based in Thoreau's, and Buell is interested primarily in literary non-fiction and how the “environmental crisis involves a crisis of the imagination” (2). He argues that there must be a revision (a re-visioning) of how literature is read (2). In the extensive footnote that contains his definition of ecocritcism, Buell explains that his book fits under the definition of ecocritical writing “in the broader sense of the term” (430). Ecocriticism seemed a possible lens to explore Dillard's weaving of nature writing with her spiritual language, as I follow Buell's call for a re-visioning of literature. Buell's work is pioneering in its breadth and remains a standard text for environmental literary exploration. Though Buell maintains that works like Annie Dillard's Pilgrim at Tinker Creek (1974) have “ancient roots,” and those roots are born from a pastoral tradition, he also believes the way nature is approached in contemporary critical circles must change because “putting literature under the sign of the natural environment requires some major readjustments in the way serious late twentieth-century readers of literature are taught to read” (144). Though Buell 10