Super Humans The Underworld...The Subconscious The Middleworld...The Conscious The Upperworld...The God Conscious Inside are the Keys to the Kingdom of Heaven! A cleansing of the soul. The Heavenly Realm The Kingdom of God is Gnostic Lie here upon thy wake, lo’ here, upon thy night, I sleep. Here beneath Her upon thy crevice, and lo’ amongst thy trees. Here atop the mountains, and lo’ above thy clouds. Here before thy waves, and lo’ before thy sands. Above thy sun it shines, and lo’ thy moon is bright. Amongst thy stars it travels, and lo’ thy rivers rage. Upon its earth I walk, and lo’ my heart is God. Here amongst thy woods, in breath of fresh air, He preach, and lo’ in Heavenly realm, I listen amidst the dew. Flowers lay its deck, and lo’ beneath my feet, where wild animals roam, and lo’ there I speak. (ref. Luke 17:20-21) Spirituality, the morning dawn. ii King of Beasts The Purge and Purification Under the burden of disgrace, through the traumas of experience, and silence, one should go through all religions, all rites, sort through all hypocrisies using the world as a guide, establish their virtues and their vices as evident, invoking truth, and indeed annihilating all from within, establishing the true believer, one with God in his secret and sacred heart, thus establishing true freedom; the sacred knowledge where all traditional values are destroyed. For some, those who this book is befitted for, and others, may fall in tears, many will beg for forgiveness, many will live on in disbelief, many will simply give up in frustration, many will become angered and disappointed, many will cheer, and many will die. Let not such things protrude you, for this is the devil himself. When lost, it is best to go back to the beginning, and retrace ones footsteps. (ref. Genesis 3:5) This book should be read as a story, a fairy tale. a Secret... iii The Golden Gems of Love Laissez Faire –The practice or doctrine of noninterference in the affairs of others, especially with reference to individual conduct or freedom of action. Laissez Faire is about free reign and the disregulation of hollow pretenses. Forgiving to those in particular, victimized by the righteous whom have faith. Whom believe in dishonesty, whom portray disloyalty, falsehood, and pursue misrepresentation, without irreversible doubt, to move forward beyond beliefs. In the process of this works, is not to torment in the labor of physical work, enslaving you to mere condemnation, but in teaching of spiritual work, subsequently pardoning your enslavement moving you in the direction of freedom of self and of others, hence, Angels of Light. For my Precious Daughter, contained within, its filled with bondage of ignorance, on your behalf, wisdom and liberation fastened to God, in knowing of Him, shall not permit coercion of the disbeliever. In way of three, are books of peace, passages of rapture, devotions, which deny the jaundiced eye against any brotherhood. To hallow contrary or radically different in some respect, result in the passage to perdition, hence, Hell. Kindling the soul, no man can dare to touch, nor capable. Beyond the flesh, a right and Guardian Angel insists. In many fold, King of Kings reside with armor in fortitude. A Demigod beneath your God, the Holy Ghost within, present the moment, a Paradise unlike any other, here on earth, as is intended. Recognize Him, and take firm my Little Darling, blessed this life sharing in gratitude, amongst its heavenly body, beholding its stars, in obvious His absoluteness. Evil arises from rulers and those that support it. Their ill fate of irresponsibility and immaturity direct it. (ref. Ecclesiastes 10:5, Surat Al-Baqarah [2:81]) iv Thy Mother embrace, I’ve fallen from grace, my memory in fog, long ago my ancestors tread, history, inverted thy memory in danger mist, and fading. I feel before me Eve’s mistakes, collateral damage and Adam asleep. Tis angered now, I knoweth the truth, makes hard the words, unwelcoming parties, opinions, and name calling begin. This road I dare to travel, requires now I share, my heart my crown, I open this gate, a deep sleep I fell, beneath me, the Gates of Hell. Innocent lamb I’ve wandered stray, Holy, birthright do I claim, vile thoughts arise, delivered, a chalice and withering fable. Fruit of ones creative artistry, the great whore, venomous vipers and scorning witches. Free as the Hawk and long distant memory, lofty messages conveyed from above, illuminating, and expressing His higher self, alas, a seer of the universe came long ago, travellers we were, spiritual, supernatural, mystical, and recalling past lives. My guardian and visionary quest, the hunter and keys to a higher conscious, seat of primal force, He stalks His prey, behold, before thee, my captors. Visiting the seen and unseen realms, gracefully, nor words too harsh, I fight for dignity as I write, I begin my journey in which I share. At the gate I cometh upon my Lord Jesus and He saith to me, “What is it in which ye must do my sister?” I replied, “I shall take the road less traveled for I hath seen their world nor shall I curse my own fate My Lord Jesus.” I seeth into eternity as I look on past My Lord, something grand, sublime and extremely powerful present itself before me, a shimmering shine like sky of blue glass, a feeling of reverence, and thy journey begin. I goeth beyond My Lord, my crystal ball, I seeth Him walk, here I trace what did He learn, to East and West His travels yearned, lo’ My Brother, I seeth thy path. I goeth before, for search of His truth, up and down I walk this earth, Satan I see, the dark of man, driving the heathen, wooden crosses and menacing demons. (ref. Deut. 9:3, Al-Baqarah 2:48) And unto Me, there upon a vision, My Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Thy eyes felt as if crystal blue, feeling I could see forever, beyond its oceans and a presence of ecstasy. My cheeks felt the color of rose and warmth therein. And thy spine, a tingling up and down, for two days, it remained. The Holy Spirit, Kundalini, The Serpent Waking, Eye of the Dragon. v Alone with Demons The depraved and destruction entice them; the rewards of their sins embrace them. (ref. Proverbs 5:22, Surah 71:25-26) The world you will abandon keep in faith only to those who practice chaos and tyranny. But you, you will remember them, who deceive and mislead. You will become wise and strong, able to distinguish those who live in fear of others and those who live with courage and fortitude. Wisdom shall become your stronghold and you shall discern all things. Light shall shine throughout your days. You will remember faith cannot be placed in the dead on behalf of the living. This book cannot be written with kind words. It will not be poetic. It exposes the desensitization process; deterring its followers into oblivion. It demonstrates the disregards for social and moral rule. It renders shame and guilt, good and evil. Prevailing false hope; contained within is an opposition to an attempt to bring repressed thoughts or feelings into consciousness. This is myway out, the final chapter. The real issues that I thought were once my fault or to my own doing, a run of bad luck, was not the case at all. I began to think of all the possibilities as to why I had fallen victim. I thought about all the rules that I had followed. I thought about all of the other avenues which exists, all those possibilities, pursuing my dreams, and in doing so, I began to see the lies, the filth, the promises, the false pretenses of hope. I then began to see them. I began to see the fears of their own deeply ingrained aggression [sic] that can only strike a blow at each other. I began to feel my stomach in knots, the emptiness at those who refuse to do anything about it, those without any sense of dignity to strike at those who have been placed above the others. Pity and disgrace followed. Fear of freedom, fear of love, fear of compassion, fear of others, fear of Satan, fear of knowledge, fear of themselves, fear of the Cave, fear of the Sun, fear of God. The psychological choke from those who disbelieve, from those spiritless souls hiding behind these walls which they have built, this institution. (ref. Mark 4:40) Philippians 1:12 I want you to know, brothers, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel. (ref. Exodus 4:12, Luke 21:14) vi Pride should accompany what one builds, liberating infidels. Arrogance carries with it devious deeds, it remains hidden, lingering while waiting for doom, it creeps laying in ruin. It can have deadly consequences and as such is a destroyer of ones best interest. Divine intervention may attack ones cherished beliefs, but while doing so, the individual becomes aware the time and life which has been stolen from him; his soul, his destiny, his right into the afterlife. The universal anguish without reason for the sake of freedom of opinion, a road going absolute nowhere, or that one should be looked down upon for having no religion at all. They say religion is the beacon for millions of lost souls, this about sums it up. In light of this, one should consider a religion for these lost souls, one which teach brotherly love, compassion, trust, responsibility, maturity, peace, harmony, and the like. And for the publics safety, these lost souls should be marked with some kind of a sign, in which we may know to stay away from the torments of these individuals. (ref. Isaiah 62:2) Prone to hurt others, to hurt themselves, martyrs for religion, martyrs for irreligion, martyrs for the greater good, martyrs for immorality, martyrs for country, martyrs for gangship, martyrs for love. One must condemn these lost souls back to hell. Our very destiny hinges on the beliefs of these lost souls who feel that the dirt beneath their feet belong to them, that the diamond is valued more than the dirt beneath which they walk, to think so little of life, that ones private religion provides more truth than the others private religion. Religion is life made true, a happiness wisdomatic realm. It does not stir up disturbances in society, or deny any other religions. One should be able to demonstrate ones power over error. The preciseway to live with greatness in this world, is to be in the realization of what you would like to be; and if one observes long enough, every error shall make itself known, that all human integrity, prudence and reasoning develop and strengthen themselves by the harmful acts of its contrary existence. (ref. Psalm 8:5–6) vii viii Christ in Limbo Nailing of Christ to the Cross. Fra Angelico (1441-1442) The Flagellation I received an Honorable Discharge. Chapter 13 - Inability to adapt to military life. I entered the US Army Reserves in 1980, a new start in life. I was sold in basic training. Tanks, helicopters, camping, machine guns, hiking, travel, adventure, exercise, healthcare, and a paycheck, what wasn’t to like. I took my GED at Ft. Jackson, South Carolina so that I could join the Army full time. I received my GED and went Active Duty. I was stationed at Dugway Proving Grounds, Utah. I worked in the Graphics/Photographic Department 5 miles out in the desert away from the military installation. Most employees were government civilians. I worked with two military personnel. I drove in everyday with Spec. 4 D. B., and worked with E-6 J. D. We worked 4 days a week, Monday through Thursday, 10 hours a day with Friday, Saturday and Sunday off. At this time I believe there were approx. 187-211 military personnel on base. On the female side, 6 females. 2 Lesbians, 1 single, the other three had boyfriends. None were friends of mine, as well, I got the feeling they were not interested in being friends with me either. Was not a problem for me. I flew home every weekend using the Military Hop (Hill AFB) and flew into Alameda Naval Base, Alameda, California to see my boyfriend. Stationed in the desert, in the middle of nowhere, I went home. On the weekdays, I spent a lot of time eating at the bowling alley by myself to avoid military men trying to get to know me. I also spent time hanging around with Spec. 4 D. B. since he had military housing. He was also married to a Korean woman who had not arrived in the states yet, but left me with the feeling of being safe since he was married. I considered him like a brother. Later on, we drove to San Francisco, California to pick up his wife at the airport. Two weeks later, she left him for another man and left the state. It wasn’t long after that, that D. B. ix started coming on to me. Asking me while driving to work why I wouldn’t date him. This didn’t stop. Day in and day out, if not every day, it was every other day, I was harassed by military men. Although, it was known I had a boyfriend and kept to myself, this didn’t stop any of them from approaching me no matter how many times I had told them “No!” In fact, it seemed to have the opposite effect, the more “No’s” I gave, the more challenging it became for them. I had men come to my door everyday knocking on my door and although I would not answer even when they knew I was in my room they would not quit knocking until I answered the door. I had men coming to my bedroom window at late hours in the evenings begging me to kiss them. I even went as far as telling one man, I did not date black men, anything to back them off. When I walked into the mess hall, the entire mess hall became quiet. I felt a sense of relief and felt that maybe now they would leave me alone. I then went to go sit down at a table by myself, and here they came, four men sat down at my table. I then got up and left. I had received at least 3 article 15’s from my captain, all which were disputed and won. Seems even my captain was trying to get to know me. My room was spotless, my uniform always ironed and boots shined. I am highly organized and take pride in my work. At this time when receiving the article 15’s and sexual harassment, I sought a JAG officer. God knows, if it wasn’t for him, I would have ended up dead. As much as I stayed to myself, I knew everything that was going on in this small base. Everyone would tell me everything as if I cared, I guess just to talk to me. Around this time, I had some dental work done and met one of the Lab Technicians, M. M. After several attempts in asking me out only as friends, I decided to take a chance. We shared interest in chess, running and both liked the same music. He was also aware as was everyone else that I had a boyfriend in California, and I considered that he was not in the same barracks in case things went sour. During one evening we were drinking tequila, listening to music and playing chess. He then got outrageously drunk, tried to take me to bed, so we fought. I received a black eye. I then left the room and went next door where my NCOIC resided (J. D.) to help me. As he opened the door, he saw my condition, grabbed me, hugged me, then proceeded to fondle my breast. At this point, CID arrived. I later made a deal with CID, fed up with the entire scenario, forced into a situation that I on the norm would have ever ventured into, against all my x