The everyday lives of recovering heroin users Joanne Neale Sarah Nettleton Lucy Pickering The everyday lives of recovering heroin users The everyday lives of recovering heroin users Joanne Neale Sarah Nettleton Lucy Pickering Joanne Neale Professor of Public Health Faculty of Health & Life Sciences Oxford Brookes University Jack Straw’s Lane Marston Oxford OX3 0FL Email: Contents Acknowledgements 9 Foreword 10 Chapter 1: Setting the scene 14 Why read this book? 14 Why focus on recovery? 15 What is recovery? 15 A study of the everyday lives of recovering heroin users 17 Structure of the book 18 Chapter 2: Considering recovery 20 Introduction 20 Mapping services and support 20 Factors that can encourage and sustain recovery eforts 25 Barriers to recovery 29 Summary 31 Chapter 3: Treatment experiences 33 Introduction 33 Methadone madness 33 Substituting with Subutex 36 The demands of detox 38 Recovery through rehabilitation 40 Progressing with peer support 46 Summary 48 Chapter 4: Coming off drugs 49 Introduction 49 The process of detoxifcation 49 Understanding ‘rattling’, ‘clucking’ and ‘withdrawing’ 49 Withdrawal symptoms 51 Managing detoxifcation 53 Cravings 54 Lapses, relapses and prevention strategies 57 (Re)lapse triggers 58 Preventing (re)lapse 59 Contents 5 Cross addicting 62 Smoking tobacco 64 Summary 66 Chapter 5: (Re)building relationships 68 Introduction 68 Childhood relationships 68 Adult relationships with birth family members 71 Strained family relationships 71 Supportive family relationships 72 Relationships with partners and spouses 75 Parenting 78 Friendships 81 Pets 83 Summary 84 Chapter 6: Emotional changes 86 Introduction 86 Comfortably numb 86 Returning emotions during detoxifcation and early recovery 88 Managing emerging emotions 93 Finding a level 97 Summary 101 Chapter 7: Bodily adjustments 102 Introduction 102 Weight change 102 On the scales 102 Feelings about weight change 104 Bowel functioning 107 Libido changes 110 Tasting, smelling, hearing and seeing the diference 112 Menstruation 113 Summary 115 Chapter 8: Health and illness 117 Introduction 117 Blood borne viruses (BBVs) 117 Getting tested 117 Contracting hepatitis C 118 Drug-related accidents and injuries 120 Chest and lung complaints 121 Dental problems 123 6 The everyday lives of recovering heroin users Non-drug related health problems 125 Aches and pains 126 Colds and fu 127 Mental health 128 Summary 132 Chapter 9: Day-to-day self care 134 Introduction 134 Eating 134 Eating on heroin 134 Eating as heroin use reduces 138 Sleeping 140 Struggling to sleep 140 Sleeping in recovery 142 Personal hygiene and appearance 146 Keeping clean and presentable on drugs 146 Hygiene and appearance in recovery 149 Summary 151 Chapter 10: Keeping house 153 Introduction 153 Living arrangements 153 Moving around and settling down 153 Experiences of homelessness 155 Being housed 157 Doing domesticity 160 Managing income and expenditure 162 Paid work and benefts 163 Income generating crime 164 Supplementary income and benefts in kind 164 Financial outgoings 165 Money management 167 Summary 170 Chapter 11: Filling the void 172 Introduction 172 Dealing with boredom 172 Working towards recovery 176 Education and training 176 Paid jobs and voluntary work 178 Hobbies and interests 181 Chilling 181 Being physically active 182 Contents 7 Exercising the mind 183 Being creative 185 Being sociable 185 Managing a social life 186 Summary 187 Chapter 12: Thinking about the future 189 Introduction 189 One day at a time 189 Hopes and goals 190 Being clean 190 Getting a job 191 Rebuilding relationships 192 Setting up home 194 Doing nice things 194 Owning material possessions 195 Finding happiness 195 Fears and concerns 196 Relapsing and returning to old behaviours 196 Work worries 196 Family concerns 197 Housing and loneliness 198 Being in debt 198 Being unwell 198 Wanting to be normal 199 A family, a home and some possessions 199 Work and everyday activities 199 Emotions and body functioning 200 Drug use 201 Change and growth 202 Increased awareness of self and others 202 Becoming moral 203 Increasing self-control and reduced anger 204 Feeling happier 204 Growing up 205 Summary 206 Appendix: Study participants 207 8 The everyday lives of recovering heroin users Acknowledgements We are very grateful to the 40 individuals who participated in our study and so generously gave up their time to share their thoughts and experiences. Their interest in, and commitment to, the research was exceptional. We are deeply indebted to them and wish them well with their on-going recovery journeys. We also wish to express our appreciation to the staf of numerous services and pharmacies who assisted with participant recruitment; the ESRC for funding the research; the National Treatment Agency for providing additional funds to support preparation of the study material for the book; Harry Shapiro and DrugScope for being enthusiastic about the project; and Oxford Brookes University for covering the publication and launch costs. Joanne Neale Sarah Nettleton Lucy Pickering June 2012 Acknowledgements 9