e r ’s ap k p a r b o e n e ti h c t e judith ryan hendricks Fo r Jo-Ann, be s t BadGirl Bread should be eaten with the eyes closed and the heart open. DANIEL WING AND ALAN SCOT T, The Bread Builders Contents Epigraph iii part one 3 one Linda LaGardia is about the most annoying human being I’ve… 5 two Mazurka Bars are, as Ellen likes to say, locally world… 21 three Shortly after I arrived in Toulouse, Jean-Marc Guillaume asked me… 29 four Spring in the Northwest is practically indistinguishable from winter except… 48 five Unless you know someone who’s short-listed for the Nobel Peace… 63 six In spite of the red-and-green intarsia sweater, or maybe because… 72 seven Lit up in the dark, L.A. looks like the vast… 90 eight A bad marriage is like the psycho killer in a… 104 nine The silence between us fills up the week. 124 part two 137 ten Crosby, Stills and Nash are getting to the point where… 139 eleven With Mac gone, days assume an orderly progression. 153 twelve It’s early. The sun is low, the trees casting long… 162 thirteen When I get to work, Tyler’s dancing around outside like… 182 fourteen He likes going to Rhiannon’s in the morning when he’s… 192 fifteen Just when you thought it was safe . . . 206 sixteen June is spring, July is summer, August is fall. The… 227 seventeen CM’s banging on the door. “Avon calling.” 241 part three 257 eighteen Now in the morning when we get home, instead of… 259 nineteen It’s dark when I get home. There are no lights… 269 twenty Christmas night. 284 twenty-one At Harrington High School in 1972, there must have been… 294 twenty-two I read the letter again, just to be sure I… 311 twenty-three It’s six A.M. on March 1, and we’re all waiting… 322 twenty-four It’s after eight o’clock when I step out the front… 332 twenty-five The familiar brown boxes have sprung up in our living… 340 twenty-six In the morning I lie in bed, wondering if Mac… 359 Acknowledgments About the Author Other Books by Judith Ryan Hendricks Credits Cover Copyright About the Publisher