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TORONTO SONGS AND SATIRES By EDGAR LEE MASTERS AUTHOR OF "SPOON RIVER ANTHOLOGY" New York THE MACMILLAN COMPANY [Pg i] [Pg ii] [Pg iii] 1916 All rights reserved Copyright, 1916, By THE MACMILLAN COMPANY. Set up and electrotyped. Published March, 1916. Reprinted March, June, 1916. Norwood Press J. S. Cushing Co.—Berwick & Smith Co. Norwood, Mass., U.S.A For permission to print in book form certain of these poems I wish to acknowledge an indebtedness to Poetry, The Smart Set, The Little Review, The Cosmopolitan Magazine, and William Marion Reedy, Editor of Reedy's Mirror. CONTENTS PAGE Silence 1 St. Francis and Lady Clare 4 The Cocked Hat 10 The Vision 18 So We Grew Together 21 Rain in My Heart 31 The Loop 32 When Under the Icy Eaves 40 In the Car 41 Simon Surnamed Peter 43 All Life in a Life 47 What You Will 56 The City 57 The Idiot 65 Helen of Troy 68 O Glorious France 71 For a Dance 74 When Life is Real 76 The Question 78 The Answer 79 The Sign 80 William Marion Reedy 82 A Study 85 Portrait of a Woman 88 [Pg iv] [Pg v] [Pg vi] [Pg vii] In the Cage 91 Saving a Woman: One Phase 95 Love is a Madness 97 On a Bust 98 Arabel 101 Jim and Arabel's Sister 108 The Sorrow of Dead Faces 116 The Cry 119 The Helping Hand 120 The Door 121 Supplication 122 The Conversation 125 Terminus 130 Madeline 132 Marcia 134 The Altar 135 Soul's Desire 137 Ballad of Launcelot and Elaine 140 The Death of Launcelot 149 In Michigan 156 The Star 166 SONGS AND SATIRES SONGS AND SATIRES SILENCE I have known the silence of the stars and of the sea, And the silence of the city when it pauses, And the silence of a man and a maid, And the silence for which music alone finds the word, And the silence of the woods before the winds of spring begin, And the silence of the sick When their eyes roam about the room. And I ask: For the depths Of what use is language? A beast of the field moans a few times When death takes its young: And we are voiceless in the presence of realities— We cannot speak. A curious boy asks an old soldier Sitting in front of the grocery store, "How did you lose your leg?" And the old soldier is struck with silence, Or his mind flies away, Because he cannot concentrate it on Gettysburg. It comes back jocosely And he says, "A bear bit it off." And the boy wonders, while the old soldier Dumbly, feebly lives over [Pg viii] [Pg ix] [Pg x] [Pg 1] [Pg 2] The flashes of guns, the thunder of cannon, The shrieks of the slain, And himself lying on the ground, And the hospital surgeons, the knives, And the long days in bed. But if he could describe it all He would be an artist. But if he were an artist there would be deeper wounds Which he could not describe. There is the silence of a great hatred, And the silence of a great love, And the silence of a deep peace of mind, And the silence of an embittered friendship. There is the silence of a spiritual crisis, Through which your soul, exquisitely tortured, Comes with visions not to be uttered Into a realm of higher life. And the silence of the gods who understand each other without speech. There is the silence of defeat. There is the silence of those unjustly punished; And the silence of the dying whose hand Suddenly grips yours. There is the silence between father and son, When the father cannot explain his life, Even though he be misunderstood for it. There is the silence that comes between husband and wife. There is the silence of those who have failed; And the vast silence that covers Broken nations and vanquished leaders. There is the silence of Lincoln, Thinking of the poverty of his youth. And the silence of Napoleon After Waterloo. And the silence of Jeanne d'Arc Saying amid the flames, "Blessed Jesus"— Revealing in two words all sorrow, all hope. And there is the silence of age, Too full of wisdom for the tongue to utter it In words intelligible to those who have not lived The great range of life. And there is the silence of the dead. If we who are in life cannot speak Of profound experiences, Why do you marvel that the dead Do not tell you of death? Their silence shall be interpreted As we approach them. ST. FRANCIS AND LADY CLARE Antonio loved the Lady Clare. He caught her to him on the stair And pressed her breasts and kissed her hair, And drew her lips in his, and drew Her soul out like a torch's flare. Her breath came quick, her blood swirled round; Her senses in a vortex swound. She tore him loose and turned around, And reached her chamber in a bound [Pg 3] [Pg 4] Her cheeks turned to a poppy's hue. She closed the door and turned the lock, Her breasts and flesh were turned to rock. She reeled as drunken from the shock. Before her eyes the devils skipped, She thought she heard the devils mock. For had her soul not been as pure As sifted snow, could she endure Antonio's passion and be sure Against his passion's strength and lure? Lean fears along her wonder slipped. Outside she heard a drunkard call, She heard a beggar against the wall Shaking his cup, a harlot's squall Struck through the riot like a sword, And gashed the midnight's festival. She watched the city through the pane, The old Silenus half insane, The idiot crowd that drags its chain— And then she heard the bells again, And heard the voices with the word: Ecco il santo! Up the street There was the sound of running feet From closing door and window seat, And all the crowd turned on its way The Saint of Poverty to greet. He passed. And then a circling thrill, As water troubled which was still, Went through her body like a chill, Who of Antonio thought until She heard the Saint begin to pray. And then she turned into the room Her soul was cloven through with doom, Treading the softness and the gloom Of Asia's silk and Persia's wool, And China's magical perfume. She sickened from the vases hued In corals, yellows, greens, the lewd Twined dragon shapes and figures nude, And tapestries that showed a brood Of leopards by a pool! Candles of wax she lit before A pier glass standing from the floor; Up to the ceiling, off she tore With eager hands her jewels, then The silken vesture which she wore. Her little breasts so round to see Were budded like the peony. Her arms were white as ivory, And all her sunny hair lay free As marigold or celandine. Her blue eyes sparkled like a vase Of crackled turquoise, in her face Was memory of the mad embrace Antonio gave her on the stair, And on her cheeks a salt tear's trace. Like pigeon blood her lips were red. She clasped her bands above her head. Under her arms the waxlight shed [Pg 5] [Pg 6] Delicate halos where was spread The downy growth of hair. Such sudden sin the virgin knew She quenched the tapers as she blew Puff! puff! upon them, then she threw Herself in tears upon her knees, And round her couch the curtain drew. She called upon St. Francis' name, Feeling Antonio's passion maim Her body with his passion's flame To save her, save her from the shame Of fancies such as these! "Go by mad life and old pursuits, The wine cup and the golden fruits, The gilded mirrors, rosewood flutes, I would praise God forevermore With harps of gold and silver lutes." She stripped the velvet from her couch Her broken spirit to avouch. She saw the devils slink and slouch, And passion like a leopard crouch Half mirrored on the polished floor. Next day she found the saint and said: I would be God's bride, I would wed Poverty and I would eat the bread That you for anchorites prepare, For my soul's sake I am in dread. Go then, said Francis, nothing loth, Put off this gown of green snake cloth, Put on one somber as a moth, Then come to me and make your troth And I will clip your golden hair. She went and came. But still there lay, A gem she did not put away, A locket twixt her breasts, all gay In shimmering pearls and tints of blue, And inlay work of fruit and spray. St. Francis felt it as he slipped His hand across her breast and whipped Her golden tresses ere he clipped— He closed his eyes then as he gripped The shears, plunged the shears through. The waterfall of living gold. The locks fell to the floor and rolled, And curled like serpents which unfold. And there sat Lady Clare despoiled. Of worldly glory manifold. She thrilled to feel him take and hide The locket from her breast, a tide Of passion caught them side by side. He was the bridegroom, she the bride— Their flesh but not their spirits foiled. Thus was the Lady Clare debased To sack cloth and around her waist A rope the jeweled belt replaced. Her feet made free of silken hose Naked in wooden sandals cased Went bruised to Bastia's chapel, then They housed her in St. Damian [Pg 7] [Pg 8] [Pg 9] And here she prayed for poor women And here St. Francis sought her when His faith sank under earthly woes. Antonio cursed St. Clare in rhyme And took to wine and got the lime Of hatred on his soul, in time Grew healed though left a little lame, And laughed about it in his prime; When he could see with crystal eyes That love is a winged thing which flies; Some break the wings, some let them rise From earth like God's dove to the skies Diffused in heavenly flame. THE COCKED HAT Would that someone would knock Mr. Bryan into a cocked hat.—Woodrow Wilson. It ain't really a hat at all, Ed: You know that, don't you? When you bowl over six out of the nine pins, And the three that are standing Are the triangular three in front, You've knocked the nine into a cocked hat. If it was really a hat, he would be knocked in, too. Which he hardly is. For a man with money, And a man who can draw a crowd to listen To what he says, ain't all-in yet.... Oh yes, defeated And killed off a dozen times, but still He's one of the three nine pins that's standing ... Eh? Why, the other is Teddy, the other Wilson, we'll say. We'll see, perhaps. But six are down to make the cocked hat— That's me and thousands of others like me, And the first-rate men who were cuffed about After the Civil War, And most of the more than six million men Who followed this fellow into the ditch, While he walked down the ditch and stepped to the level— Following an ideal! **** Do you remember how slim he was, And trim he was, With black hair and pale brow, And the hawk-like nose and flashing eyes, Not turning slowly like an owl But with a sudden eagle motion?... One time, in '96, he came here And we had just a dollar and sixty cents In the treasury of the organization. So I stuck his lithograph on a pole And started out for the station. By the time we got back here to Clark street Four thousand men were marching in line, And a band that was playing for an opening Of a restaurant on Franklin street Had left the job and was following his carriage. Why, it took all the money Mark Hanna could raise [Pg 10] [Pg 11] To beat me, with nothing but a pole And a lithograph. And it wasn't because he was one of the prophets Come back to earth again. It shows how human hearts are hungry How wonderfully true they are— And how they will rise and follow a man Who seems to see the truth! Well, these fellows who marched are the cocked hat, And I am the cocked hat and the six millions, And more are the cocked hat, Who got themselves despised or suspected Of ignorance or something for being with him. But still, he's one of the pins that's standing. He got the money that he went after, And he has a place in history, perhaps— Because we took the blow and fell down When the ripping ball went wild on the alley. **** For we were radicals, And he wasn't a radical. Eh? Why, a radical stands for freedom, And for truth—which he never finds But always looks for. A radical is not a moralist. A radical doesn't say: "This is true and you must believe it; This is good and you must accept it, And if you don't believe it and accept it We'll get a law and make you, And if you don't obey the law, we'll kill you—" Oh no! A radical stands for freedom. **** Do you remember that banquet at the Tremont In '97 on Jackson's day? Bryan and Altgeld walked together Out to the banquet room. That's the time he said the bolters must Bring fruits meet for repentance—ha! ha! Oh, Gawd!— They never did it and they didn't have to, For they had made friends of the mammon of unrighteousness, Even as he did, a little later, in his own way. Well, Darrow was there that night. I thought it was terribly raw in him, But he said to Bryan, there, in a group: "You'd better go back to Lincoln and study Science, history, philosophy, And read Flaubert's Madam something-or-other, And quit this village religious stuff. You're head of the party before you are ready And a leader should lead with thought." And Bryan turned to the others and said: "Darrow's the only man in the world Who looks down on me for believing in God." "Your kind of a God," snapped Darrow. Honest, Ed, I didn't see this religious business In Bryan in '96 or 1900. Oh well, I knew he went to Church, And talked as statesmen do of God— But McKinley did it, and I used to laugh: "We've got a man to match McKinley, And it's good for us, in a squeeze like this, We didn't nominate some fellow [Pg 12] [Pg 13] [Pg 14] Ethical culture or Unitarian." You see, the newspapers and preachers then Were raising such a hullabaloo About irreligion and dishonesty, And calling old Altgeld an anarchist, And comparing us to Robespierre And the guillotine boys in France. And a little of this religion came in handy. The same as if you saw a Mason button on me, You'd know, you see—but Gee! He was 24-carat religious, A cover-to-cover man.... He was a trained collie, And he looked like a lion, There in the convention of '96—What do you know about that? **** But right here, I tell you he ain't a hypocrite, This ain't a pose. But I'll tell you: In '96 when they knocked him out, I know what he said to himself as well As if I heard him say it ... I'll tell you in a minute. But suppose you were giving a lecture on the constitution, And you got mixed on your dates, And the audience rotten-egged you, And some one in the confusion Stole the door receipts, And there you were, disgraced and broke! But suppose you could just change your clothes, And lecture to the same audience On the religious nature of Washington, And be applauded and make money— You'd do it, wouldn't you? Well, this is what Bill said to himself: "I'm naturally regular and religious. I'm a moral man and I can prove it By any one in Marion County, Or Jacksonville or Lincoln, Nebraska. I'm a radical, but a radical Alone can be religious. I belong to the church, if not to the bank, Of the people who defeated me. And I'll prove to religious people That I'm a man to be trusted— And just what a radical is. And I'll make some money while winning the votes Of the churches over the country."... That's it—it ain't hypocrisy, It's using what you are for ends, When you find yourself in trouble. And this accounts for "The Prince of Peace"— Except no one but him could write it— And "The Value of an Ideal"— (Which is money in bank and several farms) ... His place in history? One time my grandfather, who was nearly blind, Went out to sow some grass seed. They had two sacks in the barn, One with grass seed, one with fertilizer, And he got the sack with fertilizer, And scattered it over the ground, Thinking he was sowing grass. [Pg 15] [Pg 16] And as he was finishing up, a grandchild, Dorothy, eight years old, Followed him, dropping flower seeds. Well, after a time That was the greatest patch of weeds You ever saw! And the old man sat, Half blind, on the porch, and said: "Good land, that grass is growing!" And there was nothing but weeds except A few nasturtiums here and there That Dorothy had sown.... Well, I forgot. There was a sunflower in one corner That looked like a man with a golden beard And a mass of tangled, curly hair— And a pumpkin growing near it.... **** Say, Ed! lend me eighty dollars To pay my life insurance. THE VISION Of that dear vale where you and I have lain Scanning the mysteries of life and death I dreamed, though how impassable the space Of time between the present and the past! This was the vision that possessed my mind; I thought the weird and gusty days of March Had eased themselves in melody and peace. Pale lights, swift shadows, lucent stalks, clear streams, Cool, rosy eves behind the penciled mesh Of hazel thickets, and the huge feathered boughs Of walnut trees stretched singing to the blast; And the first pleasantries of sheep and kine; The cautioned twitterings of hidden birds; The flight of geese among the scattered clouds; Night's weeping stars and all the pageantries Of awakened life had blossomed into May, Whilst she with trailing violets in her hair Blew music from the stops of watery stems, And swept the grasses with her viewless robes, Which dreaming men thought voices, dreaming still. Now as I lay in vision by the stream That flows amidst our well beloved vale, I looked throughout the vista stretched between Two ranging hills; one meadowed rich in grass; The other wooded, thick and quite obscure With overgrowth, rank in the luxury Of all wild places, but ever growing sparse Of trees or saplings on the sudden slope That met the grassy level of the vale;— But still within the shadow of those woods, Which sprinkled all beneath with fragrant dew, There grew all flowers, which tempted little paths Between them, up and on into the wood. Here, as the sun had left his midday peak The incommunicable blue of heaven blent With his fierce splendor, filling all the air With softened glory, while the pasturage Trembled with color of the poppy blooms Shook by the steps of the swift-sandaled wind. [Pg 17] [Pg 18] [Pg 19] Nor any sound beside disturbed the dream Of Silence slumbering on the drowsy flowers. Then as I looked upon the widest space Of open meadow where the sunlight fell In veils of tempered radiance, I saw The form of one who had escaped the care And equal dullness of our common day. For like a bright mist rising from the earth He made appearance, growing more distinct Until I saw the stole, likewise the lyre Grasped by the fingers of the modeled hand. Yea, I did see the glory of his hair Against the deep green bay-leaves filleting The ungathered locks. And so throughout the vale His figure stood distinct and his own shade Was the sole shadow. Deeming this approach Augur of good, as if in hidden ways Of loveliness the gods do still appear The counselors of men, and even where Wonder and meditation wooed us oft, I cried, "Apollo"—and his form dissolved, As if the nymphs of echo, who took up The voice and bore it to the hollow wood, By that same flight had startled the great god To vanishment. And thereupon I woke And disarrayed the figment of my thought. For of the very air, magic with hues, Blent with the distant objects, I had formed The splendid apparition, and so knew It was, alas! a dream within a dream! "SO WE GREW TOGETHER" Reading over your letters I find you wrote me "My dear boy," or at times "dear boy," and the envelope Said "master"—all as I had been your very son, And not the orphan whom you adopted. Well, you were father to me! And I can recall The things you did for me or gave me: One time we rode in a box car to Springfield To see the greatest show on earth; And one time you gave me redtop boots, And one time a watch, and one time a gun. Well, I grew to gawkiness with a voice Like a rooster trying to crow in August Hatched in April, we'll say. And you went about wrapped up in silence With eyes aflame, and I heard little rumors Of what they were doing to you, and how They wronged you—and we were poor—so poor! And I could not understand why you failed, And why if you did good things for the people The people did not sustain you. And why you loved another woman than Aunt Susan, So it was whispered at school, and what could be baser, Or so little to be forgiven?... They crowded you hard in those days. But you fought like a wounded lion For yourself I know, but for us, for me. At last you fell ill, and for months you tottered Around the streets as thin as death, [Pg 20] [Pg 21] [Pg 22] Trying to earn our bread, your great eyes glowing And the silence around you like a shawl! But something in you kept you up. You grew well again and rosy with cheeks Like an Indian peach almost, and eyes Full of moonlight and sunlight, and a voice That sang, and a humor that warded The arrows off. But still between us There was reticence; you kept me away With a glittering hardness; perhaps you thought I kept you away—for I was moving In spheres you knew not, living through Beliefs you believed in no more, and ideals That were just mirrors of unrealities. As a boy can be I was critical of you. And reasons for your failures began to arise In my mind—I saw specific facts here and there With no philosophy at hand to weld them And synthesize them into one truth— And a rush of the strength of youth Deluded me into thinking the world Was something so easily understood and managed While I knew it not at all in truth. And an adolescent egotism Made me feel you did not know me Or comprehend the all that I was. All this you divined.... So it went. And when I left you and passed To the world, the city—still I see you With eyes averted, and feel your hand Limp with sorrow—you could not speak. You thought of what I might be, and where Life would take me, and how it would end— There was longer silence. A year or two Brought me closer to you. I saw the play now And the game somewhat and understood your fights And enmities, and hardnesses and silences, And wild humor that had kept you whole— For your soul had made it as an antitoxin To the world's infections. And you swung to me Closer than before—and a chumship began Between us.... What vital power was yours! You never tired, or needed sleep, or had a pain, Or refused a delight. I loved the things now You had always loved, a winning horse, A roulette wheel, a contest of skill In games or sports ... long talks on the corner With men who have lived and tell you Things with a rich flavor of old wisdom or humor; A woman, a glass of whisky at a table Where the fatigue of life falls, and our reserves That wait for happiness come up in smiles, Laughter, gentle confidences. Here you were A man with youth, and I a youth was a man, Exulting in your braveries and delight in life. How you knocked that scamp over at Harry Varnell's When he tried to take your chips! And how I, Who had thought the devil in cards as a boy, Loved to play with you now and watch you play; And watch the subtle mathematics of your mind Prophecy, divine the plays. Who was it In your ancestry that you harked back to [Pg 23] [Pg 24] And reproduced with such various gifts Of flesh and spirit, Anglo-Saxon, Celt?— You with such rapid wit and powerful skill For catching illogic and whipping Error's Fangéd head from the body?... I was really ahead of you At this stage, with more self-consciousness Of what man is, and what life is at last, And how the spirit works, and by what laws, With what inevitable force. But still I was Behind you in that strength which in our youth, If ever we have it, squeezes all the nectar From the grapes. It seemed you'd never lose This power and sense of joy, but yet at times I saw another phase of you.... There was the day We rode together north of the old town, Past the old farm houses that I knew— Past maple groves, and fields of corn in the shock, And fields of wheat with the fall green. It was October, but the clouds were summer's, Lazily floating in a sky of June; And a few crows flying here and there, And a quail's call, and around us a great silence That held at its core old memories Of pioneers, and dead days, forgotten things! I'll never forget how you looked that day. Your hair Was turning silver now, but still your eyes Burned as of old, and the rich olive glow In your cheeks shone, with not a line or wrinkle!— You seemed to me perfection—a youth, a man! And now you talked of the world with the old wit, And now of the soul—how such a man went down Through folly or wrong done by him, and how Man's death cannot end all, There must be life hereafter!... As you were that day, as you looked and spoke, As the earth was, I hear as the soul of it all Godard's Dawn, Dvorák's Humoresque, The Morris Dances, Mendelssohn's Barcarole, And old Scotch songs, When the Kye Come Hame, And The Moon Had Climbed the Highest Hill, The Musseta Waltz and Rudolph's Narrative; Your great brow seemed Beethoven's And the lust of life in your face Cellini's, And your riotous fancy like Dumas. I was nearer you now than ever before, And finding each other thus I see to-day How the human soul seeks the human soul And finds the one it seeks at last. For you know you can open a window That looks upon embowered darkness, When the flowers sleep and the trees are still At Midnight, and no light burns in the room; And you can hide your butterfly Somewhere in the room, but soon you will see A host of butterfly mates Fluttering through the window to join Your butterfly hid in the room. It is somehow thus with souls.... This day then I understood it all: [Pg 25] [Pg 26] Your vital democracy and love of men And tolerance of life; and how the excess of these Had wrought your sorrows in the days When we were so poor, and the small of mind Spoke of your sins and your connivance With sinful men. You had lived it down, Had triumphed over them, and you had grown. Prosperous in the world and had passed Into an easy mastery of life and beyond the thought Of further conquests for things. As the Brahmins say, no more you worshiped matter, Or scarcely ghosts, or even the gods With singleness of heart. This day you worshiped Eternal Peace Or Eternal Flame, with scarce a laugh or jest To hide your worship; and I understood, Seeing so many facets to you, why it was Blind Condon always smiled to hear your voice, And why it was in a greenroom years ago Booth turned to you, marking your face From all the rest, and said, "There is a man Who might play Hamlet—better still Othello"; And why it was the women loved you; and the priest Could feed his body and soul together drinking A glass of beer and visiting with you.... Then something happened: Your face grew smaller, your brow more narrow, Dull fires burned in your eyes, Your body shriveled, you walked with a cynical shuffle, Your hands mixed the keys of life, You had become a discord. A monstrous hatred consumed you— You had suffered the greatest wrong of all, I knew and granted the wrong. You had mounted up to sixty years, now breathing hard, And just at the time that honor belonged to you You were dishonored at the hands of a friend. I wept for you, and still I wondered If all I had grown to see in you and find in you And love in you was just a fond illusion— If after all I had not seen you aright as a boy: Barbaric, hard, suspicious, cruel, redeemed Alone by bubbling animal spirits— Even these gone now, all of you smoke Laden with stinging gas and lethal vapor.... Then you came forth again like the sun after storm— The deadly uric acid driven out at last Which had poisoned you and dwarfed your soul— So much for soul! The last time I saw you Your face was full of golden light, Something between flame and the richness of flesh. You were yourself again, wholly yourself. And oh, to find you again and resume Our understanding we had worked so long to reach— You calm and luminant and rich in thought! This time it seemed we said but "yes" or "no"— That was enough; we smoked together And drank a glass of wine and watched The leaves fall sitting on the porch.... Then life whirled me away like a leaf, And I went about the crowded ways of New York. [Pg 27] [Pg 28] [Pg 29] And one night Alberta and I took dinner At a place near Fourteenth Street where the music Was like the sun on a breeze-swept lake When every wave is a patine of fire, And I thought of you not at all Looking at Alberta and watching her white teeth Bite off bits of Italian bread, And watching her smile and the wide pupils Of her eyes, electrified by wine And music and the touch of our hands Now and then across the table. We went to her house at last. And through a languorous evening. Where no light was but a single candle, We circled about and about a pending theme Till at last we solved it suddenly in rapture Almost by chance; and when I left She followed me to the hall and leaned above The railing about the stair for the farewell kiss— And I went into the open air ecstatically, With the stars in the spaces of sky between The towering buildings, and the rush Of wheels and clang of bells, Still with the fragrance of her lips and cheeks And glinting hair about me, delicate And keen in spite of the open air. And just as I entered the brilliant car Something said to me you are dead— I had not thought of you, was not thinking of you. But I knew it was true, as it was, For the telegram waited me at my room.... I didn't come back. I could not bear to see the breathless breath Over your brow—nor look at your face— However you fared or where To what victories soever— Vanquished or seemingly vanquished! RAIN IN MY HEART There is a quiet in my heart Like one who rests from days of pain. Outside, the sparrows on the roof Are chirping in the dripping rain. Rain in my heart; rain on the roof; And memory sleeps beneath the gray And windless sky and brings no dreams Of any well remembered day. I would not have the heavens fair, Nor golden clouds, nor breezes mild, But days like this, until my heart To loss of you is reconciled. I would not see you. Every hope To know you as you were has ranged. I, who am altered, would not find The face I loved so greatly changed. [Pg 30] [Pg 31] [Pg 32]