The Project Gutenberg eBook, Sandhya, by Dhan Gopal Mukerji This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org Title: Sandhya Songs of Twilight Author: Dhan Gopal Mukerji Release Date: October 2, 2007 [eBook #22848] Language: English Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 ***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK SANDHYA*** E-text prepared by Chris Curnow, Joseph Cooper, Sankar Viswanathan, and the Project Gutenberg Online Distributed Proofreading Team (http://www.pgdp.net) SANDHYA SONGS OF TWILIGHT BY DHAN GOPAL MUKERJI AUTHOR OF "LAYLA-MAJNU" AND "RAJANI" Seal NINETEEN SEVENTEEN PAUL ELDER AND COMPANY SAN FRANCISCO Copyright, 1917 By PAUL ELDER AND COMPANY SAN FRANCISCO TO MRS. HANCOCK BANNING MRS. WILLIAM CLARK, JR. FOREWORD Like "Rajani" [perhaps more than], "Sandhya" is a slender rill that has drawn its music from my Bengali which has told upon its English structure. This and many other faults of these poems are due to their unyielding adherence to spontaneity. "Sandhya" came then, as "Rajani" in its own way through the bed of my Bengali reflecting its sound and sense, and trying to echo back its music that descends on all with the fading twilight. Dhan Gopal Mukerji. N. B.—Since some of these poems were born without, and defy titles, I have refrained from forcing any on them. CONTENTS POEM PAGE Symbolism 1 3 Source of Singing 2 4 "With purple shadows the mist measures the infinite sea" 3 5 "O, Old! O, New!" 4 6 "The far away called her" 5 8 Lassitude 6 10 "Ah! pale, cool lips that burn" 7 11 Forlorn 8 12 After a Bengali Song 9 13 Moonrise 10 14 At Ventura, California 11 15 "The same air that you breathe" 12 16 "Why this return?" 13 17 "By the verge of the woodland" 14 18 The Dream of His Soul 15 19 The Eurasian 16 20 "In the perfumed shrine of love" 17 21 The Infirm Beggar Sings 18 22 "Kiss, my love, kiss" 19 23 Color-Harmonies 20 24 Sanatan (The Absolute) 21 25 Coming of the Fog 22 26 "In love's afterglow, full of stars" 23 27 The End 24 28 The Confluence 25 30 "In the deeps of Dream" 26 31 To Leo B. Mihan 27 32 Chopin's Funeral March 28 33 "In the golden afterglow you lay" 29 34 Henrik Ibsen 30 36 After Hearing "My Old Kentucky Home" 31 37 The Coming of the Tide of Night 32 38 Dead Love 33 39 "It is the same twilight, dear" 34 40 Weariness 35 42 "A call, not a song" 36 43 Remorse 37 44 Poet 38 45 Wanderer 39 46 At Dawn 40 47 "From her many-colored bow, Nature" 41 48 "If words fail, song will come" 42 49 Rainy Night 43 50 Ghosts 44 51 Rain 45 52 Evening Worship 46 54 "The rosy mist stilly polishes the round mirror" 47 55 "The sun's golden spear" 48 56 Truce 49 57 A Parallel 50 58 "'Nothing endures,' you said" 51 59 Disappointment 52 60 Buddha 53 61 "Ask me not to stand at thy friendship's gate" 54 62 "Golden vines they" 55 63 At Sundown 56 64 "Tears well out from my heart" 57 65 "At last thou comest" 58 66 "The lingering light of the sun" 59 67 "I have drunk your tears with insatiate lips" 60 68 Sound Butterflies (In a Fountain) 61 69 "Even in sadness thou art beside me" 62 70 "By the sea of sleep walks white-robed Night" 63 71 Farewell (After a Hindustani Song) 64 72 Satiety 65 74 "Drowsy the noonday air" 66 75 Chatterton 67 76 "A summer song it was" 68 77 "Who Knows" 69 78 The First Vision 70 80 Shanti 71 82 SANDHYA, SONGS OF TWILIGHT I SYMBOLISM Tongueless the bell! Lute without a song! It is not night It is God's dawn, Silence its unending song. Over heart's valley, In the soul's night, Through pain's window Behold! His light! On Life's Height. No prayer, now, Though death-waves roll, Faith's candle lit, Beside it sits the soul Reading Eternity's scroll. 2 SOURCE OF SINGING A bruised heart, A wounded soul, A broken lute, [3] [4] That is all! A sad evening, And a lone star, Then song reddens— Sets life's forest afire! 3 With purple shadows the mist measures the infinite sea That spreads her wave-raiment in lavender, violet, gray, and green; While with thin silver rays a lone star seeks to sound the deeps. The breeze-wings tire of flight; The mist-threads weave a rose-fringed dusky drapery To cover the bare breasts of the dunes from the moon's langour-heavy eyes. The shadows die in purple silence; Fades the one star from the sky, As the dark mist puts out the rose-red moon from its deep. Pale gleams the lighthouse light; No warring waves break the peace of sleep tonight Nor a hungry wind shrieks in pain from the lea. Under her heavy veil of black A languid sea sluggishly flows To some far land of forsaken dreams. 4 "O, OLD! O, NEW!"[1] Who are you? Why make me wait From the hour of dew Till another sunset? Why do I look For your coming? Listen to the weeping brook That might bring To my lonely shore A word from you. Ah, nothing! not a leaf's tremor! O, old! O, longed for new! Who are you? I ask; Know not why I seek From day to dusk Without waking or sleep,— No sleep! no waking! A dreaming, a longing; Not knowing, yet seeking, For your coming waiting— O, spring-born! O, autumn-clad! O, soul's new morn! O, old! O, glad! So glad, so young! O, unseen, unknown, O, fugitive vision! [5] [6] O, eternal moan In my heart— O, tearful Soul of laughter, Untouched, unhurt, O, sweet! O, bitter! My born yet unborn, Shadow not fallen O, undawning morn— O, message unbroken. Why, how, when? I wait, wait for you, O embrace of earth and heaven; O, Old! O, New! "O, Old! O, New!" is the cry of a "Poáti," e. g., a mother's cry to her unborn child. "Poáti" has no precise English synonym. 5 The far away called her— A pilgrim on the hope-lit bark of youth, A woman, a child, a soul On an argosy for the lands of south. It called her in her dreams; Her waking into a deeper dream grew; The flute of the distant Played ceaselessly the music of the new. With words of fire it called her, Beyond the bourne of her days To a silent sea of joy Washed by unending twilight-rays. It called her at dawn When night shed the star-jewels from her hair; It called her at sunset When the moon mutely ascended the heaven's stair. It called her without ceasing— Hour after hour but a calling, Till "Come, come, come!" At her soul's door kept repeating: Come, come, come!—in Her word, her music, her song; Far away, near, far again Heedless of nightfall and dawn. It called, it cried, it prayed, Till She, the deity, made answer Through youth, through age, through death To her own far away's receding star. 6 LASSITUDE Ah! to be able to sing, To sorrow in melody; [7] [1] [8] [9] [10] To string with silver Sorrow's dark harp! Or, mount every thorn Crowning life's brow With lustrous stars— Those tears of the sky. Rolling down its face When night's hand puts Darkness's crown on its head As twilight dies. None of these, for my soul; Only to weep is given to me, To nourish my heart's crop For the scythe of barrenness to reap. 7 Ah! pale cool lips that burn, Body that yields, though unyielding, Oh, moon with the heat of the sun! Flashing out a million lights To cleave into nothing the endless firmament of my being. Take all; my soul's mistress! heart's queen, The flaming fancies of my dream-tortured night The intoxicating fruits of my day dream, The fiery lotus of my senses' delight That rises from the abyss of my life. The abysmal heaven of love and living Now bruised, burnt, torn and thrown To the winds of thy ravishing rejoicing Whose inarticulate words of delight and moan Make the ever-yielding music of my soul. 8 FORLORN In the star-blurred hours of the night When the cloud-dams stay the flow of winds, Not even the shadow of a meteor moves, As in the watch-tower of love I sit; Through the casement of hope look for thy coming Along the moss-grown path of stones— Those agonies that time has built on my soul— By the unfathomable lake of my tears Shed when even prayers had failed To bring thy returning. Come, destroyer of my peace and sleep, Plunderer of lights of my days! Enigma on the scroll of my fate Before the lightnings fired my tower And thunders crashed in my life's sky. Only send the echo of thy footfalls— The ring of thy song, And a star—reflection of thy smile— Those million suns in the firmament of my dawn. [11] [12] 9 AFTER A BENGALI SONG In the forest of my being the voice of your lute; In the depth of my heart the pearl of your tear; In the temple of my soul chimes the bell of your love. The fire of dawn, shadow of eve, Life's sorrow, and death's mute-enchanting peace Steal away silently, fearfully, at thy flute's music. O, frail, faint call which I seek to echo! O, breath of love laden with the aroma of my soul! Why seek I ever without, O guest at my door? 10 MOONRISE A soft light mantle of rose wear the brown hills As they look down on the valley where the rills Spin their long silver embroideries For the fringe of spring's greenéd draperies. The cloud-banks recede with the fading breeze, The warblers fall into silence in the trees To listen to many-colored dream-melodies That the mute stars make on sleep's endless seas. The last light flickers out of the sky, Shadows with golden feet o'er the green valley hie; The silver rills trill like warblers from earth's deeps As the moon, the sun of another dawn, heavenward leaps. 11 AT VENTURA, CALIFORNIA The moon rises and washes the brine with silver; The dunes like white elephants restfully asleep after the chase; And the fog comes to bring the moon its veil of shades. The waves stretch their phosphorescent arms To embrace the night, The wind like a wounded gull beats its wings Over the land, over the sea, into the fog-vested intangibility. Like a thousand trumpets the breakers Proclaim the empiry of night, The rocky caverns send back echoes Like homage from vassals near and far; A faint cry seemeth to flash like lightning; Through the clouds of the roar of waves: It is not from the rocks, nor from the sea; Ah! it is the prayer of a mightier ocean—Humanity! [13] [14] [15] 12 The same air that you breathe Is the air that caresses my sky; The sunlight that lingers on your hair and lips Sets fire to the pathway of my life; And the call of nature's numberless birds But reflects in world's mirror the music of our heart's singing— Melody made of sweet agonies, Exquisite joys poured from pitchers of pain, As this summer's heat From the ever-burning heart of heaven. Not heaven alone; The earth, the air, flowers, and leaves Filled with passion that knows no slaking, Yet tranquil like sleep's dream-billowed sea. More than dream-billowed sea this love that I bring, Its boistrous waves seek the firmament of your yielding; While your heart-beats' arrows seek to slay my heart a'beating, As I inhale the fragrance of your breath and hair; And pour the perfume of my soul On your sun-bathed feet. 13 Why this return? Why this sunlight When all seemed without sun? Whence this call? I cannot tell, Yet its mighty thralls. Hold me, haunt me Hour after hour, With its name of thee. All seems ended, The last light lost In the house of the dead. Yet with time's tide Rises thy face, My heart, my soul, my bride. Though poureth the rain, And sorrow clouds my sky, Yet not mine the pain. What I hear I can not tell, And what I fear, Will not endure: But thou returnest, O serene, O silent, O pure! 14 By the verge of the woodland, Where purling brooks loosen their brown tresses, [16] [17] [18] Where the music of the breeze Is played on viols of the vines and trees, Thy soft words I hear Like songs from enchantment's strings. Ah, vanishing moments of ecstacy! Far-fleeing only to be nearer to my soul, Rest, rest awhile on the hillside of my echoing! Pour on it the sweet rain of thy words' melody Till they mingle and drown my tears Into thy kisses' passion-swept sea. 15 THE DREAM OF HIS SOUL The Dream of his Soul, in flesh and blood— Not to possess, but only to see— Was given him, for an hour: Ah, fool, he lingered longer,— The Dream died like the shadow of a Star! 16 THE EURASIAN Indignity your part today, Suffering the guerdon of the gods; No country to claim your own, Nowhere to lay your head. The ocean of ignorance separates us; The snow-storm of commerce blinds the eye; Yet you must stand true, Bridge of blood and flesh between the West and East. In ages to come, when Man will love his brother, Irrespective of birth and breed; In the pantheon of the future, yours the immortal seat. Son of man, you are brother! Bearer of the cross of God! Your destiny the lodestar of our epoch, Your life our rood-littered road of the Lord. Arise, awake, halt not Till the goal is reached; Raise high the Host of freedom Blare the trumpet of light. "Suffer you, for the world to rejoice"; "Die" so they "can live"; Live that you may bring the light To the meeting place of the West and East. 17 In the perfumed shrine of love, Where burns memory's exhaustless incense From the irridescent thurible of hope, On the altar and couch of my heart Rest thy limbs, O, god of my soul. [19] [20] [21] Drink of the unquenchable draught of caresses; Tear the flowers of my dreams and fancies; Scatter the sacred petals of my passion To the four winds of thy rejoicing. Thy rejoicing, that one festival of the High Gods, Where no offering that I bring ever be too dear, Where no soul burnt in the fire of senses can perish; Where no suffering fails to be mother and daughter of joy. Take all, great God among these Gods: The pearl of my woman-soul buried in deeps of passion, The coral-wreath from the ocean of my bleeding heart; And ravish with exquisite merciless touch The one star in my heaven that has led thee hither— My life's eternity in this worship of an hour. 18 THE INFIRM BEGGAR SINGS Broken and bruised by the hand of Fate, Dark night, my staff, Leaning on its shadowy strength I walk Toward thee, my God. Thy crescent my e'er-present friend; Thy wind, thy voice, Calls me to go on without end To thy star that my soul hath seen. The hour is black, my road unbuilt; My beggar's song I cannot sing; yet, thou knowest, For thy love I long! I come, O Lord! broken and battered To thy world where sorrow is not. 19 Kiss, my love, kiss My burning, breaking being; So when cold death Will put out the light In some wilderness Of far forsaken life Might each kiss blossom Into a lotus and a Shephali.[2] And in the desolate hours Of loneliness of traveling In the dusk of despair One petal of these Will cheer the vagrant souls That tread the pathway Of love's forsaking. Or, when Death will sow This Soul of mine On the lake-shore of sorrow, Like a weeping willow I will spring, And with my green tresses And bending body Shall shelter secrecy-seeking lovers That love for an hour, [22] [23] As our twin hearts today. Kiss then, with kisses of flame; Touch me with rosy caresses; Bury this, my hope, my dream, And thy all-conquering love of me; So the kiss-flowers may each be a dream! May my willow be the vision of Eternal Spring. Flowers full of perfume, abounding in Lower Bengal, India. 20 COLOR-HARMONIES Violet hills, Rosy mist, Limpid pool, Golden notes from sunset's lute For shadows Draped in green With purple feet To dance and swim Through irridescent undulatings. Dusk descends; Mauve cloudlets— Dying butterflies— Flit and fly and die In the opalescent ocean of mist That grows dark and still, Kisses away the last gold From the brow of the hills; Till the coral crescent With its wand of breeze Makes silver ripple-music On the pool's shadow-laden deeps. 21 SANATAN (THE ABSOLUTE)[3] Our hopes that fail Are but truths that set To illumine other spirits on their pathway; As our joys that come true Are their far-off dreams, That through the cadence of our life Ring out their pent-up tunes. Whatever dies—needs must live, Whatever breathes doth die too; But above death and life Shines that High Light Where all find rest, Yet endlessly move. The word absolute is the synonym for the Sanskrit word Sanatan, meaning Eternal and Immutable Truth. [2] [24] [25] [3] 22 COMING OF THE FOG Killing the light, Blurring the stars, Marring the breeze— Nature's many-stringed harp— It comes Silently, sinisterly, Over the land, over the sea, Spreading its beggar-raiment of brown. Without stop, without sound, Over the valley Like a great serpent of silence Coiling around the heart of sound. A damp insidiousness Creeps into the night; A drab numbness sets in Dripping in lugubrious drops From the haggard fingers Of the autumn trees. It strangles the last sound, It devours the last light, Trembles in fear To see its own visage; It moves on, on, and around, Ceaselessly, untiringly, Till the black night is drowned In an abyss of brown. 23 In love's afterglow, full of stars, Those lilies of the river of night, Sing no song, dear, speak no word. The white noontide has ebbed into gold; Shores-breaking seas cease to roar; Lo! the moonrise of our soul. Hardly a kiss, or the shadow of a caress; No decking the hour with the jasmines of touch; But a rose-petal shivering in exquisite agony—our love. The weary sunset has grown wearier; A vague lassitude encircles us twain, As separation builds its pathway of tears. Cease weeping, yet the saffron light lingers; The stars throb in nebulous lustre, As our hearts to the music of desire. What matters if winter be nigh? We sang summer to sleep, And autumn on its bed of leaves. Now comes the hour of parting for us, As the last light flickers and fades; [26] [27] Even love's afterglow dying, and is dead. Alas! thou art gone, as are the hours of day; The hard gem-burning stars do not set! Oh, In what dark, in what forest roamest thou? 24 THE END Art thou about me Amid falling leaves And autumn's circling winds When the golden shadows Grow russet and rosy And the purple sunset sets fire to the sky? Art thou the breath That burns my being When cold feel my limbs in terror, and awe? Who art thou? My love? Stranger in a strange garb! Far and farther to be nearer to my heart! Why make spring-flames leap From passion's autumn leaves? Why this urge through fatigue When time falls fast asleep Under the shadow of its grave— The winter ice? Yet, and yet The circling winds Repeat passionate speech, The sunset burns, As my soul In desire's golden heat, Though night be not far Shadows creep near With chilling breath and clutching hands To pluck To destroy The flowers of yielding from your heart: Powerless, fear-stricken; I tremble, I stagger, I fall Into oblivion's pit As time creeps Into winter's grave Silent, empty, white. 25 THE CONFLUENCE Tears of Ages come in a stream, Sighs flow in from Life's hoary height, Souls of Sorrow bring their gleam Of a light that is but a moan, not a sight. The gray waves of the Sea of Death Congeal under the cold Sun of Suffering, While Time, playing the flute of Fate, Charms them, snake-like, and doth bring. [28] [29] [30] Out of a Cave, beyond Lights and Shades Present's storm,—made stormier by Future's promises,— To mingle in the Ocean of Death Like Sleep, yielding to Dream's caresses. 26 In the deeps of Dream O'er the pool of Sleep A lone star her face Seeking, with song-kindled eyes Her Isle of Rest. Across the dusky hills The first flush of waking Unfurls its silver banner To signal the Isle for her: She vanishes, as before, into the fading Night. Thus the Eye of Life Searches for the home of Peace Night after night: And when the sun of Death rises It flees,—it loves its own night. 27 TO LEO B. MIHAN Few notes out of the coffer of sound, An image from the gallery of Nature, An hour from the infinity of Time,— Out of these, blessed creature, Createst thou the world of endless rhyme! 28 CHOPIN'S FUNERAL MARCH The keyboard black and white; Shadow-Light the Evening's scale; Half silent the voice of thy singing. Quiver the notes in pain; Exquisite, sad, the melody at thy touch; Like the silver arrow of Desire Piercing the Soul's golden heart. The room is lost in dark. The ivory keys, white fringe Of a music long since mute; Yet, in the black night Tremble and toss notes Unheard, undreamt,—like sleep Sleepless, and waking full of smart. [31] [32] [33]