The Charles Viewer Fisher College 2002 Digitized by the Internet Archive 2016 in https://archive.org/details/charlesviewer2002fish The Charles Viewer Poetry, Prose and Art from the Students of Fisher College, 2002 Editors Jenica Antonellis Courtney Bartlett Aubrey Ramage-Lay Cesca Waterfield Faculty Advisors Amy Beaudry Michael Knoll The 2002 edition of The Charles Viewercontains art and literature created by students of Fisher College. In assembling this work, we sought to present a variety of artistic themes and styles. Though much of this work relates to issues present in the lives of the writers, much of it speaks to an expansive and diverse audience. For their assistance and support we thank the following: Dr. Scott Fisher, Interim President; Dr. Charles Perkins, Vice President for Academic Affairs; Marjorie Roy, Assistant Dean of Academic Affairs; Andrea Taskovics, Assistant to the Vice President; faculty who encouraged students to submit their writing and art to the magazine; and the IS staff, for setting up our computer equipment. Special thanks to Dr. Dean Walton, Program Director, Liberal Arts. -2- Table of Contents "Fontaine St. Michele, Paris" Cesca Waterfield Cover Photo "Flower" (Photo) Courtney Bartlett 4 "Dancing" Aubrey Ramage-Lay 5 "My Wrist is a House" Cesca Waterfield 6 "Finding Myself" Sewon Lee 7 "La Route Que Je Sais" Jenica Antonellis 9 "We Ate Like Goliath" Courtney Bartlett 10 "Breakthrough Session: Bulimic to HerTherapist" Cesca Waterfield 11 "Painful Harvest" Aubrey Ramage-Lay 13 "Dogs" (Photo) Kiana Majors 13 "Invisible" Wanda Collazo 14 "Me" (Photo) Kiana Majors 14 "Bodies" Jenica Antonellis 15 "They Cut the Soysauce with Sprite" Kira Brook 18 "Dog" (Photo) Courtney Bartlett 20 "Deli Haus Night" Aubrey Ramage-Lay 21 "My Affair with Lamp" (Photo) Courtney Bartlett 22 "A Night in Liangshan" Dan Kessler 23 My "At Night Cover Ears" Abstract 25 1 "Daze" (Photo) Kiana Majors 27 "Words Will Not Erase" Cesca Waterfield 28 1 "Let the Punishment Fit the Crime" Courtney Bartlett 29 "My Life Dealing with Friendship and Loss" Jennifer Paun 31 "Another Night" Courtney Bartlett 33 "In a World of Confusion" Erin O'Flaherty 34 "Loveless and Lost" Erin O'Flaherty 35 "Girl on T" (Photo) Kiana Majors 35 "Just One Time" Jacqueline McManus 36 "Self-Portrait" (Photo) Kiana Majors 36 "Dear Mother" Kira Brook 37 "Woman and Child" (Photo) Kiana Majors 38 "A List of Broken Things" Jenica Antonellis 39 "Pere Lachaise" (Photo) Cesca Waterfield 39 Eze Cesca Waterfield Back Cover Photo -3- bartlett Flower L-Ourtney -4- Dancing Ramage-Lay Aubrey It's raining out The kind of grainy black and white rain That turns the whole world into a kind of Old movie And I'm this guy stuck out With this need to dance In the street But not that crazy tap crap Runnin' 'round like I haven't a care And the world's perfect But more like a nice slow waltz Alone in the street In the rain And I'm whole And I'm happy And maybe the world doesn't have to be perfect -5- My House Wrist a is The moon soaps my neck: a syllable lights the sky. My feet press letters in the earth. See there what my heel lifts to reveal: a word. My wrist is a house, host to rhythm whose thumbs are blood. My limbs speak susurrant languages of space when they bend or rest, when they reach to hush a stuttering strand, flush at touch. My brain strings words like Ruth at her basket. The reeds she takes sway in the breeze that drives waves to break at my shore. My soul holds a speckled forest of scarlet tanagers plucking seed. On a velvet carpet of moss and loam I linger, a silhouette against yellow light of yesterday holding a fresh inky page. When today's words strum the unknown if in a line, a bell, rising, comes the rustle of scarlet wings on paper, wings and air and flame bleeding past bone wings beating beyond my fingers, crimson flashing in my palms my like fire in hands. -6- Lee Finding Myself Sewon was one of those invisible kids who didn't really have a presence when was I I growing up in Korea. Being the firstborn son (considered to carry on the "pride" of the family in many Korean families), I was treated like a king at home, but outside, I would bo invisible. At home my parents, grandparents and cousins would pamper me. I could have almost anything I wished to have, but outside I was nobody special. I would be an extrovert inside my littlecastle, but anintrovert once went past the walls that made me king. Past the walls of my kingdom was I I a mere peasant, not worthy of another glance. Very shy, with a very low self- confidence, I was scared to speak up for myself, too self-conscious of making a mistake, fearing persecution from my peers. As I rummage through my mind to look back on childhood, it suddenly occurs to me that I don't have much recollection of it. It's as if I've blocked a part of my memory, hiding behind the ones that I "want" to recall. I don'tevenremember the friends I had before I left for Australia. Ihavea photoofwhatlookslikemestanding in the school playground dresseci in a school sports uniform—white shirt with smears ofbrowndirt and light blue shorts—holdinga traditional Koreanhandheld drum, which looks like a small beige frying pan. Kids around me dressed in the same way, standing in rows and columns. I guess they were my friends. I guess! Their sunburnt faces are familiar, but I don't know their names. This realization that could not remember my early years made me feel eerie. The sense of I recognizing your own face in a photo and yet feeling detached from it, as if it wasn't you. On the contrary, images of me playing soccer after I moved to Australia at the age of ten are still vivid and crystal clear, as if it was yesterday. The tingling sensation in my stomach in anticipation of the start of a match. Soft and yet firm feeling of rich green blades of grass under my studded boots. Adrenalin jetting through the veins as the umpire sent out a shriek from his high-pitched whistle to signal the start of the battle. Feet clashing. Hearts pumping. Sweat trickling down the sides of the faces; lungs inhaling heavy, much-needed oxygen. And then, victory, glorious victory. It is always exhilarating to defeat your enemy, to be the victor. Through playing sports I was able to interact with people more naturally. There was less tension and I grew comfortable with making new friends. All the running drove out the introvert and the shyness in me. Spending my adolescence in a western culture has had a very profound effect on me. It was a very different culture where everyone was an individual and was -7- respected as one. In Korea, people show respect to theirelders, whereas in Australia thereis a strongersenseofmutual respect, regardlessofage. In Korea, when greeting an older person, perhaps a teacher, you would bow your head in a sign of respect. Teachers or older people in general are at such a distance that you would not call them (anyone over your age) a 'Triend" or vice a versa. The concept of friendship in Korea only allows people of the same age (almost always) to be friends. Even the use or choice of words change in the Korean language according to the age of the person you're talking to. For example when you say "hello?" to someone your age or younger, you would say "An Nyung?" but to an older person, you would have to say "An Nyung Ha Se Yo?" and bow at the same time. You could imagine the refreshing surprise I had when I went to Australia and found out that I could be friends with teachers. Of course, they were teachers in class and needed to be respected as such, but we could be on an equal level outside oftheclassroom. Wlienyou compare the language, English does notseparatewords to be used to a person according to their respective age. "Hello" is "hello," whether the person you're talking to is nine or ninety. Eastern culture has taught me the respect for elders, while Western culture opened me up to accept equality and respect for others in a different way. I was abletowidenmyrangeofviewsby not disregardingothersbecause they'reyounger, less educated or just simply different. I don't pretend to know everything there is to know about life, but it is amazing to find myselfthinkingthatsomanypeople perceivetheworld onlybywhat they've seen, how narrow minded onecould be and not realize it. I was one ofthose people, and I would still be if I didn't get the opportunities that I did. I consider myself as a hybrid, a mutt, even, as far as my way of thinking goes. It's a combination of eastern ethics and western liberties. I am a conservative and a liberal at the same time. I am grateful for this gift I have been given. It gives me so many more chances to integrate with different kinds of people without experiencing too much conflict. Toexperience twocultures as I have is one of the most fulfillingand yetchallenging experiences one could gain. I have learned that everyone's views can be very different depending on their background. Acknowledging the fact that we are all different is the first step in understanding others. In doing so. I've come closer to understanding myself, which was harder than understanding others. Still, at the expense of gaining my "people skills," I have lost a sense of identity. I sometimes feel I am standing in the middle of two worlds not really belonging to eitherone. In a no man's land between thecastle and the outsideworld. I am neither a king nor a peasant anymore. am a diplomat, a link between different worlds. I -8- La Route Que Antonellis Sais Je Jenica The Road that I Know (translation) Je suis une tres jcune fille ct 1 am a very young girl and Tristesse est la couverture Sadness is the blanket Qui me chauffes. That wamis me. Je suis incapable et 1 am incapableand Tristesse est la couverture Sadnessistheblanket Qui m'etouffe. Thatsuffocatesme. Je suis une belle fleur et 1 amabeautiful flowerand Tristesse est le nuage Sadness isthecloud Qui me protege. Thatprotectsme. Je suis une belle fleur et 1amabeautiful flowerand Tristesse est le nuage que Sadness isthecloudthat Je ne peux pas voir a travers. 1 cannot seepast. Je suis un esprit solitaire 1ama lonesoul La tristesse est ma tres belle amie. Andsadnessismyverybestfriend. Je suis un esprit perdu Iamalonesoul Et tristesse est le seul chemin vers ma maison. Andsadnessismyonlyroadhome. Je suis un humaine. Iamhuman Je peux choisir le bonheur 1couldchosehappiness Mais, je choisis la tristesse ButI chosesadness Farce qu'il est le route Becauseitis Que je sais. TheroadthatI know. -9-