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Government VICTIM IMPACT neat TT Sadlatchewan STATEMENT Visa's Name Bemasine Bout sufizeSeeico RCMP F Division fface Date APH, 2018 Offence Location MEANTIME ac dentihe Number 2018-46748 ‘Tis form may be used to yeovide a desaription ofthe physical er emotional ham, property daoge or eoanomic las suferot ty youas the reauk of he comeassion ofan offence, a well as a description of te pact of the afencs oa you. Yournay “tah editions pages if you ned mace space. ‘Your statomeat must no ache + ny semen aboat the offence or he offender chat not reevant othe harm or oss you sured any unproven allegations, + aly coranets about any offence for which the offender vas at convicted; + my complaint aboot ay fdividal, her Cuan te offender, wo was involved in the investigation or proseutim of he ffnes; ot + aceop withthe court's approval, an opinion orrzcormmendation abou! the santeace. ‘You may prosent x deste aecount of tho impact he offener has hd en your life. The fllowing soctions are examples of ‘infection you nay wich onlin yo sateert, You ae wot requied io futode alo his information. motional impact Deseribe how the oenos hes affected you emotionally, For example, io of * your ieee and aves ere Deeps th cts ash as oar poe fil and ends, your ability to werk, tend seiot or study, and + Your fein, emotions and rections as they relate tothe oe 8 information is ineuded fn an atlachment 0 tis Physical impact [Desert haw the offence bus aeted yom pisioly. For example, hink of * ongoing pysial pan, scam. ies, serrng, dlsfgurement or physical imation, * hasptnation o surgery you bave had because of he once; ‘treatment, syslotherapy or medication you have buen presribed need foray Taher tement othe expectaion tat you wil renee ure aes and ny permnnent a longterm isa information i Included In an attachrnent tas eonomis impact «Describe how the offence has affected you financially. For example, think of the value of any property that was lost or damaged and the cost oF repairs or replacement; + any financial loss due to missed time fom work; + the cost of any medical expenses, therapy or counselling: and + any coss or losses tat are not covered by insurance, Please noe that this is not an application for compensation or restitution. [fhe information is includad in an attachment to this. ears for security Desorbe any fers you have fo your security or hat of your Family and frends, For example, think of * concerns with espet to contact with he offender, end + concer with respect conlct between the offender and members of your fuily ur close fends [This isnot a factr for our tariy. Drawing, poem or ltr ‘You may use this pce to dra epiture er write «poem cr leer i it wil help you express the impeot hate ofenc has had on you [The information ts mohuded in an ataohment to Wis. to present my statement in cout ‘To the best of my knowledge, the information contsined in his statement i tue avd tis_13 _dayor_ January 2919 y Lethbridge, Alberta, Canada Seimeteckomi ia) Beak sf you completed his statement on behalf ofthe vetn, please indicate the reasons why you di 90 end the nature of your ited this day of. 2, a Signature of declarunt © Victim Impact Statemant for Bernadine Boulet. Police Service: RCMP F Division Offence Date: April 6, 2018 Offence Location: Intersection of Highway 35 and Highway 335 {south of Nipawin) Incident/Flle Number: #2018-448743 My name is Bemadine Boulet. My son is Logan Boulet. On April 6, 2018, my life, my family's lives, and, most importantly, Logan's life were changed forever. Logan was able to battle through his severe injuries and was able to survive for almost 49 hours before succumbing to those injuries. I guess, 14 other families might say we were lucky fo spend most of those 19 hours with Logan in ICU to hold his hand, to talk to him, to sing to him, to read stories to him, te tickle his feet, to share with him, to wash his face, and love him with ail our being for the last times. But our luck ran out and at 11:45 am on April 7, Logan was declared brain passed. We know he battied for as long as he was able but this was not a battle to be won. My iife is now filed with questions and statements starting with “What if...” and “Why...?” and ‘If only... .” Unfortunately, no matter how many times | say these, nothing will change and { cannot make things different or better. | would give anything fo wake up and to have everything in the last @ and a half montts to be erased. But we all know this will never happen. | am constantly surrounded by reminders of Logan; many make smile and remember my amazing, funny, teasing, kind son, but offen just litle things that are the most difficult and my chest aches and my throat constricts and tears fil my eyes. Its little things like the box of ¢ snack baggies | bought for treats for Logan's birthday, or seeing the LEGO he loved in a store, or the boxes of yogurt tubes that sit in the freezer for {unches, or a ted Jetta driving by, or students waiting to cross the street by the University of Lethbridge, or watking through the men’s shoe section at The Bay, or... . Itis litle things | don’t expect to stop me in my tracks, but they do. Those things are so hard to deal with and to ‘move on with what is happening around me. I guess | could say | have been fortunate to not have had any true physical impact from the Crash, beyond the aching in my chest and hole Heel in my soul The financial impact our family has endured is on going. We try to be at everything we can that has to do with the Broncos and the Crash. We travel to events and activities to be with other Bronco famities and Logan's billet family and to keep the connections with these families intact, these are the families that the Crash has forever fied to us. There are no Bronco families near to us in Lethbridge, and so we offen have costs of travel and hotels and meals to be at these events or activities. We are sometimes fortunate enough stay with other families or Logan's billet family or to be reimbursed, but this is not always the case. |ama teacher and | have a job that aliowed ma to have a leave after the Crash without loss of salary. However, this fall, | retumed to teaching at only 0.8 Full Time Equivalent (FTE). | was able to have Extended Disability Benefits pay a further 0.2 FTE of my salary but lost 0.2 FTE. In addition to this lessened salary, my pension will be impacted because | have not worked fulltime. This, in turn, will impact the money | will receive from my pension upon my retirement or I have the option to buy back this time with my own money. ‘The physical and the financial impacts have really not been that great. The most significant impact on my family and (has been the immense ve & and often consuming emotional impact of the Crash and the passing of my son Logan Boulet. i continue to struggle with saying the word death. | struggle with the fact Logan will not be coming home again. | struggle with knowing our lives and stories will continue but Logan’s will not. This Crash has cheated us alll out of many things in our future, it has cheated Logan out of his future, and it has cheated us out of having Logan with us, Logan was to attend the University of Lethbridge in September 2018 to begin his journey to become a teacher. He would have been a talented and giving and kind and creative and humourous and imaginative teacher. He would have been a leader on his staff. He would have ‘coached and gone beyond the school day to make his students’ experiences the absolute best they could be, | know this because of the ex Way Logan has grown and matured, because of the man he has become, and because of how he had begun to give back to his community, his family, his friends, and his neighbours. Logan will take the time to sit and visit and fo genuinely listen to what Is being shared. He willingly helps others without being asked to help and displays patience with those he is around. Logan has a smile that could light up a room and make others feel welcomed and at ease. His smile is greatly missed and is often ihe trait mentioned by these sharing stories about him. He is a leader that made sure others were included and a part of what was happening, while being a quiet leader that doesn't aspire to have the limelight shining on ‘him but to have all his team and family and friends in the light. Logan loves adventures and to try new things and experience allhe f — could...food, travel, cultures, events, activities, art. He has traveled to Europe, the Caribbean, Mexico, California, and across Canada. Heading to Kindersley in the fal of 2015 to play in the SJHL was one of his ob «greatest adventures. This allowed him to grow and mature, to become independent, spread his wings, and to experience life. We were so excited for him to have this opportunity. When others asked how we could allow him to be so far away, we never hesitated. Logan became immersed in the community and when he became a Humboldt Bronco, he continued on. The adversity of being traded made him stronger and more resilient, as he has always bounced back from adversity and setbacks. He has always viewed the adversity fo be a learning experience and he has battled to become a better person, player, of leader because of it. The adversity of the Crash, however, was one he could not overcome, even though | believe he tried. 1am so proud of my son, Logan Boulet, and the person he has become. His choices will define him. He will be known as an organ donor that inspired thousands and thousands of people to register as organ donors. He will be known as someone that gave right to the end, 9 Lam so very sad that his future farnily, his future friends, our community, future students and colleagues, future players he would coach, and future neighbours will never get to know Logan. They will not experience the amazing, caring, fun, loving, patient, concamed, and courageous person he has become. But mostly, | am extremely broken-hearted because my family and | will not get to continue our lives with Lagan being physically and emotionally present, | am so saddened that we will never again get to travel on an adiventure together. | will not get to tatk about teaching and help Logan as he works his way through university and his education program. # witl not get to watch him cross the stage in the U of L gym and receive his gm degrees. | will not gat to help his set up his first classroom and ehare my fibrary of books with his class. | wil not get to be the Mother of the Groom and to watch him wait for his bride as she walks up to him. | will pu not get to sit and see him be a playful and fun-loving uncle to my daughter Matiko’s children. | will not get to walk through the door of his first home with his wife. | wil not get to watch him experience the joys of becoming a father and of raising and loving and playing with his own children. 4 will never have grandchildren with him as their father. And my list of the things | will not get to de with Logan will never end. The lists of things Toby and Mariko will naver get to experience with Logan will never end. The lists of things my parents, my brother and his family, my aunts and uncles, and my cousins will never do with Logan will never end. These same lists of our friends, Logan's friends, and especially Logan's girtfriend will never end. Logan impacted us all immensely and was a huge part of our lives. We now all have a hole where he shouid be. Logan’s list of things he will never get to do or experience in his life began abruptly on April 6, 2018 because of something he never had a choice about. The emotional impact the Crash and the passing of Logan has had on me is so immense that | cannot find the words to accurately describe it and just ramble on about this impact. | just want to hug my son. | want to have a conversation with him and to hear his voice in that conversation. | want him to tease me. f want him to walk in our front door and flop down ‘on the couch. | want him to shake his leg during mealtime and to tell him to stop. | want him leave his egg pan on the stove and say he will just use it again tomorrow. { want him ta smile at me. | want hear his giggle. b want to have Logan back. But that wili never happen. Someday, | will maybe be used ta this “new normal” without Logan being physically and emotionally present. But maybe | won't... ever. Neither Logan ner | ner my family nor 28 other people on the bus nor their families chose for this to happen. But, we are all having fo live with the (consequences of that day and somebody else's choice. prea, te jo yvownpaig Peden, hope, Inu wo bayye® - pur Soq ised ‘WebeT - ano) RR hump bap (apie EL ojay ) wopagriey peaszam MP2] iasg Aoyabay lowraq 30 apie, Ow In AAS

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