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Collins, MD 5 The Gift by Michael A. Grassi 8 Mrs Rodell by Adria Burrows, MD 10 Tears by Paula S. Krauser, MD, MA 13 The Intern’s Vein by Jordan Smoller, MD 15 When to Touch by Diane Morse, MD 18 Healing Arts by Lisa M. Lanzarone, MD 20 The Legacy by John C. Cozart, MD 22 Shreds of a Flowered Shirt by Emily R. Transue 25 Portraits by John D. Rowlett, MD 27 Paths by Ellen Kroop-Martin, MD 30 The Chief Complaint by Ann E. Dominguez 32 Are You Sure? by Thomas M. Gill, MD 34 Painful Lessons by Michael P. McCarthy, MD 36 Secondary Survey by Meg Verrees 39 A Father’s Eyes by Stephen Schultz, MD 42 Hands On by Mark R. Fleisher, MD 44 Regaining Compassion by James W. Lynch, Jr, MD 46 Watchers by L. Stewart Massad, MD 48 A Vacation Fit for a Coбaкa by Nancy L. Greengold, MD 51 The Person With the Disease by Clifton K. Meador, MD 54 Holding the Heart by Daniel J. Waters, DO 56 Beginnings by Carolyn Wolf-Gould, MD 58 v ftoc.qxd 8/1/05 2:29 PM Page vi vi Contents The Reward by L. Stewart Massad, MD 60 Identity Matters (or Does It?) by Zira DeFries, MD 61 Remembering Jinx by Charles Helms, MD, PhD 63 Light in the Afternoon by J. Dennis Mull, MD, MPH 66 All in the Family Father’s Day by Elaine Herrmann, RN, MPH 71 Ashes, Ashes by L. Stewart Massad, MD 74 Haying by Harriet A. Squier, MD, MA 76 Last Rounds by Joseph T. Martorano, MD 77 . . . For My Father by Khalid J. Awan, MD, FPAMS 80 Jerico Springs, Missouri by Brent Swager 83 A Doctor in Her House by Bernadine Z. Paulshock, MD 85 Message From Mahler by Dan Gehlbach, MD 88 Moments of Love by David S. Pisetsky, MD, PhD 90 For Everything a Blessing by Kenneth M. Prager, MD 93 A Conversation With My Mother by David M. Eddy, MD, PhD 95 The Dark Side Do Angels Cry? by Matko Marusˇic´, MD, PhD 105 The Messengers by LTC Michael V. Slayter, VC, USA 107 Remembered Pain by Robert S. McKelvey, MD 110 Belinda, Asleep Without Dreams by Kris Sperry, MD 112 A Simple Act by Reg Green 114 A Winter’s Tale by Gregory J. Davis, MD 117 First Encounter by Daniel J. McCullough III 119 God Save the Child by Charles Atkins, MD 121 Frozen in Time by Robert Burns, MD 124 Thanks for the Memories Friday Afternoon by John T. Lynn III, MD 131 Leek Soup by James F. Gardner III, MD 132 The History of Crete by Selma Harrison Calmes, MD 135 ftoc.qxd 8/1/05 2:29 PM Page vii Contents vii House Calls by Ronald F. Galloway, MD 137 Another Language by Marcia Goldoft, MD 139 My Heroes by Nina K. Regevik, MD 141 Retrieval by Robert H. Lokey, MD 143 The Captain by Seigfried J. Kra, MD 145 Dying to Live by Eric G. Anderson, MD 148 The Disability Blues by Dean Schillinger, MD 151 Livia by Joel Lazar, MD 153 Joshua Knew by Liana Roxanne Clark, MD 156 Thank God I Have Cancer by David M. Mumford, MD 157 The Delivery by L. Stewart Massad, MD 160 The Bard in His Outcast State by Steve Schlozman, MD 162 Colors by Fred Leonard, MD 165 Cristina by Peggy Hansen, MD 168 The Little Picture by Barry Gelman, MD 169 Until the Peppers by Bernadine Z. Paulshock, MD 172 Heartpains by Joseph K. Izes, MD 175 By the Numbers by Nancy L. Greengold, MD 177 Laphroaig by John T. Lynn III, MD 180 Babu by Mark S. Smith, MD 182 Jailhouse Blues by Joseph E. Paris, MD 183 The Last Death Song by Steven F. Gordon, MD 185 Flaky by Ronald A. Katz, MD 188 The Man Who Didn’t Know He Had Cancer by Adria Burrows, MD 190 A Purely Cosmetic Procedure by Alan Rockoff, MD 193 The Hymn by David N. Little, MD 195 Monday Morning Clinic by Abigail Zuger, MD 197 Chorea by Ronald H. Lands, MD 200 A Little Night Poetry by Walter Schmidt, LPN 202 Taps by Laurie L. Brown, MD 204 The View From Here Pace, Pace by Naomi G. Smith 209 The Great Wait by Janice F. Lalikos, MD 211 ftoc.qxd 8/1/05 2:29 PM Page viii viii Contents Thirty Years Later by Norma C. Wark 214 What Are We Going to Do About Mother? by Evalynn Morgan Quisenberry, BFA 219 Touch Me by Meg Verrees 222 Respect for the Dead by Dian G. Smith 225 A Thin Green Line by Scott Waters 227 He Lifted His Eyes by Nancy Keene 228 Windows by Frank D. Campion 230 Believer by Kathy Swackhamer 232 A Mutual Investment Company by Cheryl Morai-Young 234 When You Come Into My Room by Stephen A. Schmidt, EdD 236 The Ear by Lauri Umansky Onek 240 Through the Looking Glass by Hester Hill Schnipper, LICSW 242 The Venetian Blinds by Lee Litvinas 247 Come Follow Me by Louis M. Profeta 248 Long Ago Today by Joseph J. Gallo, MD 251 No Better or Wiser, Just Braver and Sicker by Nina Herrmann 253 Perspective Shift by Daniel Shapiro, PhD 256 Glossary 258